Sometime in the latter part of January, portals began appearing anywhere I focused my attention. Even though they had different entry points, they each led to the same ALL and EVERYTHING that is, and as a result, it was clear that although life appears as multiplicity, it is really all just One Wholeness seeming to have many faces…the thought occurred, “all roads really do lead to Rome”.
I was attracted to these portals as iron filings are attracted to a great magnet, drawn as if there was nothing else warranting my attention. Repeatedly, I found myself at the event horizon, but deep in my gut was the realization that it was the point of no return and that to just let go, would bring the unavoidable dissolution of my sense of separateness from the ALL and EVERYTHING that is.
So, even though I could feel myself being sucked up into the totality, I repeatedly hesitated out of the fear that I would no longer have the illusion of a separate me through which to hold onto my perceptions that there is time, space, a path, a mission, death, free will, etc.…..in other words all the most foundational elements that still define my experience as an individual.
Despite my individual hesitation, much was lifted up and dissolved by the One and ALL, and I glean with fresh eyes that final surrender does not mean the end of experience, but the end of separation. As I have done repeatedly for the last 50 years, I remind myself that it’s going to be better albeit different on the other side.
~ Warren
